Appreciating the Weekend Already…
Posted by Dayna
I’ve been in a weird head space this week.
I had my end of year review meeting with my manager today and the first thing she said to me was, “You look numb.”
Funny, I feel numb.
I got some not-so-great news about work earlier this week and in my normal fashion, I completely shut off and made myself not care. Without going into too much detail, I was told that because I’m on a contract I don’t qualify for any sort of reward (salary increase, bonus, nothing). It would’ve been really nice to know this before I worked my ass off for the last year. Not that it would’ve changed my work ethic AT ALL, but it’s the shock of only finding out now that’s really got me bummed out. I was doing everything I could to prove that I deserved a raise and even started running a fund all by myself – which isn’t what I was hired to do.
My manager told me that they wanted to make me permanent for next year and that I’m in a good position to take over a more challenging role but that doesn’t really make me feel any better. Normally, I could care less about the money and just want to advance my career, but I can’t do that right now. Plus, it’s like being told you’re worthless – it hurts, yo!
More than anything, I’m ready for a change. When that doesn’t happen, I feel like I’m not accomplishing anything and my life is pointless. I get angsty, claustrophobic, and end up really annoying myself (and I’m sure, others).
But yeah, I’m starting to get over it now and who knows what will happen. I do love my job and the people I work with so it’s not all bad!
On a brighter note, this weekend is Toast Martinborough. The actual event isn’t until Sunday, but we’re leaving tonight! There’s a group of about 12 of us going and we’re staying at this really flash house on a golf course! There isn’t much planned besides a BBQ and the soccer game Saturday night so it should be a nice relaxing weekend away. Which will be great after this last week!
What are your weekend plans?
November 13th, 2009 at 2:42 pm
Oh man, that’s no fun. I didn’t get a raise this year, and I’m not too surprised, due to the recession and all. But that would suck to be that committed and get nothing in return. However, it is my 5 year anniversary, and on the 5’s you get an award at the staff Christmas party. I’m hoping some kind of bonus will go along with it. That would be super nice right about now.
Hope you have a fun weekend! I don’t have much planned. Just a birthday dinner for a friend, and that’s about it. The fun stuff is coming up soon, though!
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November 14th, 2009 at 10:43 am
HUGS, Dayna. I know how much work-related CRAP can really get you down, because work is such a huge part of your life, it’s not easy to just let that stuff slide, even when everything else is going swimmingly. It seems to always be there in the back of your mind. Sucks that you aren’t going to be rewarded financially for your efforts, but hopefully there will be some other way your bosses can acknowledge your hard work – something informal or non-monetary that will help you to feel appreciated. It’s SO important.
Hang in there, I’m sure great things are to come for you, and you have the right attitude and determination to get them!
November 16th, 2009 at 2:35 pm
I’m sorry, that really, really sucks. I know how it is, though. Working in a school district, I was a part of a union and went FOUR YEARS without a pay increase, because the school board and the voters and the union couldn’t agree on a contract. SUCKED. And then they changed it the year before I resigned.
On another note, are you still wearing that gorgeous white dress to the Toast? I can’t wait to see pics!
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November 20th, 2009 at 1:28 am
Yeah that is what contracts are about they can lock you into a wage for the length of the contract. However by the sounds of it there is nothing but blue skys and way more money ahead. So what I see in this is really good stuff because they can see how hard you work for the love of it! They can see your work ethic and how you get along with people etc etc. So I know right now it feels like you are not getting ahead but in reality I think this is the a great start to a great career down there. They can see what you can give them and see if you are worth promoting you and investing in keeping you for a long future. Hold on kiddo there are greater things ahead! Love ya